Hmmmm yesterday when i went to the doctors i found out that i have some sort of learning disability...
I don't know how it arose but we were talking about the doctors son, and she talking about how he had the same problem as he and they were thinking about getting extra time. I kinda just assume she was talking about my ADD but then mum started talking about my psychiatric testing, and then the whole issue about my learning disability arose. I kinda new i had one but just sort of but it down to my ADD but no... Apparently i have a disorder to do with the connection between the front and back of my brain. Apparently it happens quite a lot to adolescent males and like they have high IQs but quite express themselves so like they get scores and depressed heaps. However apparently the disorder usually fixes itself by the time you turn 25. It wasn't exactly like mum hid it from coz i remember something being mention about it but i just don't remember being told the specifics about it.
It kinda weird tho coz i mean i have a disability that's supposed to make you depressed and i on medication that can cause depression as a side effect - yet it's not like i really get depressed all that often. Apparently last time talked to my doctor about it she told her her main task was to keep me alive till I'm 25! I mean sure i get depressed every now and again but like that's normal teenage depression that like lasts a day or something - \not like "i wanna slit my wrists, the whole world is shit" depression.
Sorry to pile a lot of shit on everyone but I'm just kinda surprised myself but at least there's an upside - i mean at least now i have a reason for doing shit in my work rather than just being stupid.